This was the most incredible experience. I thank you for putting a face to the term widow that I can relate to. I was excited to meet other 30 year olds and that is what I was hoping to find, and I did. Thank you for making me realize that I have gained so many gifts along this un-chosen path. After leaving Sunday, the next morning I was able to get up and not be both physically and emotionally tired as soon as I got up. I have not felt that way in 14 months. It took me awhile to able to put words to the way that I was feeling. I felt I could actually breathe. The next day I could use the word ‘happy” and actually mean it. Michele, your conference was THE best thing I could have ever done for myself during this time. I could continue to go to group meetings and reading all the books out there, but until I was able to talk about Joe with someone who has been there and laugh about the un-chosen path that we’re on, I don’t know when I would have been able to breathe again. The main thing I took from this is that I don’t have to be sad all the time to remember Joe and that no matter what I do, how I move forward, and if I laugh more, it will NEVER diminish the true soul mate love that Joe and I had. So I thank you for knowing now that it’s not impossible!!